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[sighsheavily]

Character info

Character name: Cecelia Ardenbury
Canon: OC.....here's her statblock
Canon point & release date: My brains like back in 2010

Personality

What is your character most afraid of? How are they defined by this fear? (200-300 words)
True isolation and a complete devaluation of her existence. She's given up a lot to ensure others have plenty, and she has to believe that makes her sacrifice meaningful. At this point in her extended life (thousands of years!!), if she can't have the validation of having done a good job then she will have nothing to fill the hole in her heart that's come from giving up the chance to just live a natural life with people. The fear of being isolated and forgotten entirely is key to her more anxious disposition and her desire to be perceived positively even when she doesn't know WHY she wants it.

What is your character's greatest desire? How are they defined by this desire? (200-300 words)
~*True love*~ - but like a personal, selfish one she doesn't have to share. The angst for that motivates her to pursue all the happy endings she helps nudge events move toward for the various people she encounters in her planeswalking.
Since she was a little girl, she's always been enamored with romance and happily ever afters - wrote so many for herself - and even after giving up her chances for that in her adulthood still is moved by romantic acts...or things she perceives as romance, yanno.

What is your character's most defining memory or relationship? How are they defined by this relationship? (200-300 words)
When she was 15-16, back on her Very First adventure, she wound up in a party with H'agar - a half-orc warrior. She related to him right away as a halfblood herself, and his tragic backstory was what helped her realize that tragic backstories are REAL and not just fun things to daydream and write fanfic about. He was the linchpin for her sense of empathy.

How will not having memories change your character? What core personality traits, if any, will change? How? (200-300 words)
Without the knowledge of her role as a planeswalker, she won't have cause to hide her feelings and opinions as she's apt to when working. She can express emotional investment! Be vulnerable! Openly enjoy or deride things without fear of ruining a narrative!

Thread samples:
One read your own tags and perish
Two her with her guard Up

Memories

You have 10 memory points. How will you use them?
I'd like to allocate point-buy based on the level of a spell (ex: cantrips/lv1 spells that chars start out at the onset can be 1pt, lvl 2-3s are 2, lvl4 and up 3)

Type of regain: 1 points.
Cantrip: Dancing Lights

Type of regain: 2 points.
A Major memory: She remembers that in her childhood, some personal writing of hers was stolen and published without her consent. While she doesn't remember the full scope of the writing, she knows that it getting out and being perceived was horrifyingly embarrassing (spoilers it was self-insert fanfic).

Type of regain: 1 points.
Cantrip: Mending

Type of regain: 2 points.
Language proficiencies: She can read/write common, elvish, and angelic. She can speak common and elvish, but struggles with angelic.

I will keep the remaining 4 points for later use c:

Player info

Name: Elle
Pronouns: she/her
Age: 36
Contact: whyellewhy
Permissions: i will...MAKE ONE...if u accept me 😎

Link to invite: Invite
Character in game: n/a